||[Jan. 3rd, 2005|03:04 pm]
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Well, I'm posting! So there you go Sasha <3|
you know when you have it niggling in your mind that you want to go back to starving/restricting, you're almost determined to, but you won't because you know now how harmful it is and how it fucks with you but it still won't go away? That's me at the moment. In an incoherent daze of food. Everything revolves around what I am putting in and taking out of my body. I haven't purged sinced yesterday, which is pretty good, but I'm not really trying not to... which is stupid because I should be happy with myself for this, but I feel guilty.